New Years Eve

So, the past year is, well, past. Feel’s kind of nice to feel my 21st birthday coming closer ;) And the studies in Mullsjö after the summer. Just longing for that.

I’m right here, in a sofa, typing this xD Just because I’m kind of bored. And f*ck this internet connection, using my phone as my modem, my mobile broadband is yet to be paid. This means that I don’t have band weight for µTorrent so I can’t get the Zombieland torrent down :( Oh, check out the trailer at IMDb (here). It seems like a hell of a zombiemovie :D

well, going back to being social for a while, was told I could use my grandmothers connection later to get the last 56% down, shouldn’t take more than half an hour. So, count on me coming back here with yet some little characters ;)

Kisses to those few who are worth it! I love you ! <3

Regards:

Chalk bag :)

Me and mum are in the making of a chalk bag for the climbing :)
It's gonna be quite nice I think :)

I'll post pictures when we're finished with it :D

Love all ya readers <333

Wirran <333 Miss you so freaking much! I need you right now !

Regards:

Fuck Fuck Fuck . . . . . . . . . . . . .

I miss the time when I was this small... No problem in the world, and now, everything just gets messed up... Love, friends, school, work, money, food... Everything is just a fucking mess...

If I feel like this tomorrow, I'll probably quit being on MSN, turn of my phones, and only update my blog, when I feel there is something to put up here... Like that would ever happen, and why would I do it exactly... Like anyone of the returning readers acctualy care about me......
No, I'll probably be offline everywhere from tomorrow and until I feel good again... Started to take my anti-depression pills again, just to see what use they acctualy have... Oh, I doubled the dose I got like 6 months ago :O Hope no one care, because I don't... I was this --> <-- close to take three Gabapentin to fall asleep, but I didn't... I don't want to do something bad... It ain't my style... Remember that!

Regards:

Hmm..... Fuck....

Fick this... I need a new Walkman phone :(
My W660 is fucked up since I took the bike to honey........

I had it in my pocket, headset connected and listening to music...
About halfway it just died, or that's what I thought....
The keypad light was still on, the screen was dead...

I've been flashing it over and over again, both without any patches, without trying to break it or anything, but it has just kept being dead...

Today I tried to reflash it again. I got the screen working... My first reaction was.... YAAAAAAAY!
So now I was to finalize it by applying my custom pack, which has been working MANY times before... And when I've copied the files to the proper locations, I disconnected as usual, removed the battery and reinserted it again... Started up, screen working :) and then... ka-blaam, the screen goes black :O Keypad light still shining bright, still some sound from the speaker...

I restarted the phone, screen was dead, restarted again, screen working...
Got into the menu and found alot of misscolorizations... Opened the Service Menu, entered the service tests and selected Main Display... A lot of problems with colors, like everywhere :O

The screen then just dies, AGAIN! And it has been keeping on like this for a while.... :(

So now I'm looking for a new Walkman phone, which is a DB 2010/2012/2020 so I can keep on with my modding.... Found a W610 on Blocket for 600:- but I don't have that money right now...

Well well, gonna be social as I'm at mums house :)
See y'all later <333

Wirran, I miss you so much I can't even describe it....... <3333

Regards:

The day today

I've been with my sweet Wirran almost the whole day :)
She had to get home at 5 so we weren't so much at mums house, but when we were me and mum had a fight =/ So we left quite quickly after arrival...

When we got home to me, we jumped into the bed, watched The Illusionist, or atleast half of it, if it wasn't yeasterday night xD And then we watched Final Destination 2, as she hadn't seen it :)

We had quite som cozy time when watching :) She had her head on my chest... Very cozy I must say :)

When she left, I headed straight to mums house, and she'd asked me if I wanted to eat with them, and so I did. We talked a bit, but it was quite a tense atmosphere... Which loosened up afterwards. :) She offered me a cigarette, we smoked, talked a bit and messed with my sister...

Then I went home and took Pluto with me :)

Now I'm just sitting here, chatting with a few people on MSN...
But everything seems so empty right now... I really miss my darling :)
Probably we won't see eachother on thursday, as she's off to Stockholm with school, and won't be home until I get home from climbing...

The club is going to Tranås and climb a 18 meter wall if there is enough with joining people :)
Hopefully I can get to climbing tomorrow in anyway so I can see Wirran tomorrow, but to be honest, I don't think I can get there :(

Well well, I'm gonna be more social to those on MSN and I'm thinking of watching a movie :)

Love all ya readers <3

Wirran, I really miss you! You are so wonderfull and you know how to make and keep me happy :) <333

Regards:

Wirran <333

Sitting at mums house and has Wirrans arm around me ^^,
We've had quite a nice day since she came here ^^,

My mum is gonna make a hole in my left ear again xD

Be back when done xD



Wirran <333

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Work :)

I am at work right now. Kinda lame right now. My employer is still sleeping...

Listening to "Kodd - Behöver dig" and it makes me think of Wirran, even thou I think of her constantly, this song really tells how I feel :)

Now I'm gonna do something usefull, like clearing up the bench and the table... Oh, for you who don't know, I'm my mothers assistant... She made a mess at the table this night when she did what the doctor calls a "reset"... She kinda faints for about 10 minutes, and when she wakes up she's like 6 year old again... :( It's really wierd...

Well, need to start now as my shift just began xD

Love all ya readers out there <333
Miss you Wirran <333

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Hehe

Gooooooooood Mooooorgniing !!!!!

Im so freaking tired in my whole body today xD It's kinda wierd xD

I woke up for like 20 minutes ago, I think, and now I'm going to get dressed and go to mums house :)

Miss you Swettnouwz Wirran <333

Regards:

Wirran <333

Can't stop think about you honey<333
Longing for tonight so I can see you, hug you and kiss you!!!

I have not felt like this for quite a while and it feels really nice!



About that text you sent me, you can't miss me more than I miss you, because I don't think you like me as much as I like you!

These days since you were at my place I havn't thought about anyone else but you, and if there is anything else it has been for like a millisecond, and then you were back in my mind!
If anyone would have counted the times I mentioned you today, they would have lost count after like half an hour, as I mentioned you all the time! <333

Really really miss you honey, and I'm so freaking mad that there is no way to get to you rignt now, this very moment! :(

This evening is gonna be the best thing today <333

Love all ya readers! <333
Wirran <333

Regards:

Wirran <333

I'm sitting with mum and watching "Trauma - Life at ER" and I can't concentrate on it even if it's very interesting... The only thing I think of is Wirran... I hope she's okay. I've confessed to her that I'm falling in love with her... <3
She's so wonderfull and I can't understand how she could have been treated like she says... :o I just want to show her how I think she should be treated, with love and care. As stated in an earlier post, I want to be the one to cheer her up, dry her tears, hold her when she's down and I want to be the one to tell her that she's loved and show her that she's not unwanted, unloved or worthless. In my eyes she might be the one for me.
I can't stop smiling when I see her smile, my heart speeds up when she touch me, and she's always in my mind! Gaah, can't stop think of how I would feel if Stoffe changes his way of treating her so they stay together... =/ I don't want to be without her, I don't want to go to bed without her at my side, without hearing her breathe, hearing her heartbeat or feeling the warmth radiate from her sweet and cozy body. I know it sounds wierd, but I actually think she's the one for me. And I really want to be the one for her <333

Regards:

Mums house

Been sitting at mums house. Mum had to go to the hospital, but they're back soon :)
Her arm has been x-rayed and when they come I'll hear what they said...

Now they just opened the door :)
It was a bloodfilled muscle piece. So nothing bad then ^^,

This means I'm soon walking home, listening to Matchbook Romance, Adept and Nomy <3

Been texting with both Sara and Polly :) They're nice, and they've kept me company for a while.
I'll might go to Jönköping tomorrow with Bella and then I'll hopefully meet Speedy and Ostrich ^^,

Well, gonna be social now before I have to go.
Love all ya readers! <333

Regards:

Yesterday :(

Well, yesterday didn't go as planned, it went straight to fucking hell, atleast until I met Doris, Polly, Pollys sister and her sisters friends, dont know their name, but I think Pollys sisters nick is Josse or something xD Else it belonged to someone else of them xD

Acctually, that was quite fun ^^, And as usual, I forgot to ask Lydia for her number xD Thats like the thir13en'th time I do so :P:P:P Hope I remember it next time i meet her ^^,

Well, gonna get dressed and of to mums house for some coffee and some bullshit-talking xD

Ohh, forgot to tell, spent my night by watching the whole season 1 of American Dad ^^ LOVE IT!!!! "I cant understand that you lied about that! - And there are many more things I lie about" hahahahahahaha That lines so lovely!!!!! <333

Love ya all readers <3333

Regards:

Away to mums house soon...

...to earn me a pack of smokes ^^, I ran out of money when I bought a fucking stamp so I can send in my school application :P

Jännifärs pal Äääliin is coming here today, in about 2 or 3 hours xD We're gonna run around in Grimstorp and make everyone think "WTF!?" hahaha xD

Well, now I must finish my breakfast, containing pasta and meatballs xD, and get away ^^

Love all ya readers <33

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