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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Weird :O

I’ve been at my dad’s place many times this week, once a day :O Like the first times in I don’t know for how long. But it seems that they’ve changed very much. Can’t sense the fake tone when they say something anymore, like I did before, and they’ve stopped to repeatedly say my name, like 2-3 times in each sentence. I actually enjoyed being there ! :D

With that weirdest of weird things said, I can just state that I’m going there more often now, until the catch shows up, there’s ALWAYS a catch when they are nice to me. Always been, always will be. Enough said!

By some reason it felt right to take JozzÄ home with me, so here I am, in my biiig bed, with her sleeping (after I kind of forced her to try to find the nice things about BorderlineC’s texts, but without success), so I decided that I’ll put up something here :)

Well, a short summary of what I’ve done today (or yesterday to be correct):
* Went to mums house to get some coffee and to meet Bella (ex-girlfriend, mums assistant).
* Went to dads house to get my external hard drive, which now includes all the old files from my stationary pc he bought. Spent most of the time playing with my little sister Elina :)
* Went from dad into the city to meet up with some friends. Spent like an hour and a half running in and out of the train station. Also met Cidde, an old assistant of my mother, to get a sony-Ericsson T630i (yes a very old one, but lovely) which I’m supposed to unlock. That’s funny :D

As I’m still not in the mood for sleeping I’m going to boot up the gamecube and play some Need For Speed: Most Wanted, as I can’t get enough of being chased by the cops, which by the way is smarter than those in NFS:Undercover for PlayStation 2 :O

Good night and kisses to everyone worth it. You know who you are and I love you <333

Regards:

Thursday, April 02, 2009

hmm...

Blaah on this...
I'm feeling down and depressed...
I just feel tired and I just want to sleep...

Regards:

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Bored, depressed...............

i dunno what to write, but i suppose i should as it was quite a while ago...

been watching death note season 2 and well, i love it!





this has been a boring day, and well, this week will probably go on with being boring...
its not like someone will show up here and keep me company, as i m so fucking boring just sitting at the computer watching alot of anime....

gonna try to do some sketching now or something... or play in photoshop cs4 or what ever....
c ya...

Regards:

Monday, March 30, 2009

Music

Listening to music and chatting on MSN...
The music is:

  • The Medic Droid
  • Adept
  • 3OH!3
  • Bring me The Horizon
  • Intohimo
  • Secondhand Serenade
  • Bullet for My Valentine
  • Matchbook Romance
  • Insane Clown Posse
  • Children of Bodom
  • Dead By April
  • Deathstars
  • herbrightskies
  • Lamb Of God
  • Linkin Park
  • Rammstein
  • Marilyn Manson
  • Takida
  • EDDA

I am a bit bored... Longing to see Wirran <3


Going to Sävsjö to be with her later, and then the climbing tonight...
Just one problem, how will I get home... =/

Regards:

Monday, March 23, 2009

Fuck Fuck Fuck . . . . . . . . . . . . .


I miss the time when I was this small... No problem in the world, and now, everything just gets messed up... Love, friends, school, work, money, food... Everything is just a fucking mess...

If I feel like this tomorrow, I'll probably quit being on MSN, turn of my phones, and only update my blog, when I feel there is something to put up here... Like that would ever happen, and why would I do it exactly... Like anyone of the returning readers acctualy care about me......
No, I'll probably be offline everywhere from tomorrow and until I feel good again... Started to take my anti-depression pills again, just to see what use they acctualy have... Oh, I doubled the dose I got like 6 months ago :O Hope no one care, because I don't... I was this --> <-- close to take three Gabapentin to fall asleep, but I didn't... I don't want to do something bad... It ain't my style... Remember that!

Regards:

Sunday, March 22, 2009

The day today

I've been with my sweet Wirran almost the whole day :)
She had to get home at 5 so we weren't so much at mums house, but when we were me and mum had a fight =/ So we left quite quickly after arrival...

When we got home to me, we jumped into the bed, watched The Illusionist, or atleast half of it, if it wasn't yeasterday night xD And then we watched Final Destination 2, as she hadn't seen it :)

We had quite som cozy time when watching :) She had her head on my chest... Very cozy I must say :)

When she left, I headed straight to mums house, and she'd asked me if I wanted to eat with them, and so I did. We talked a bit, but it was quite a tense atmosphere... Which loosened up afterwards. :) She offered me a cigarette, we smoked, talked a bit and messed with my sister...

Then I went home and took Pluto with me :)

Now I'm just sitting here, chatting with a few people on MSN...
But everything seems so empty right now... I really miss my darling :)
Probably we won't see eachother on thursday, as she's off to Stockholm with school, and won't be home until I get home from climbing...

The club is going to Tranås and climb a 18 meter wall if there is enough with joining people :)
Hopefully I can get to climbing tomorrow in anyway so I can see Wirran tomorrow, but to be honest, I don't think I can get there :(

Well well, I'm gonna be more social to those on MSN and I'm thinking of watching a movie :)

Love all ya readers <3

Wirran, I really miss you! You are so wonderfull and you know how to make and keep me happy :) <333

Regards:

Monday, March 16, 2009

This night...

...has been awful :(
I've been depressed as hell and been watching some movies to cheer me up...

The french Taxi (1) and Taxi (2) :) Love them <3
At the moment I'm watching WALL*E (^^, )

I've noticed that some of my DVD's work in my new one I got from Ronnie, and some work in my old player :O That's really wierd :P

Well, gonna continue to chat with Sara (check her blog, link to the right) and Twiggyboll (^^,) and of course I'll continue watching cutie WALL*E <3

Love all ya readers <333

Regards:

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Alone again....

So, now I'm alone again =/
Polly's mum were here and picked her up :( She were supposed to be somewhere tomorrow so she had to go...

Well, texting with Louise and it's quite fun :) She's the only one that seems to notice me right now... Not even the girl supposed to love me.... Well, to hell with everyone that ignores me...

Now I have to answer Louise's last text... ^^, She's sweet <3

Love all ya readers! <333

Regards:

Friday, March 13, 2009

Visitor :)

I might get a visitor tonight :)
As Speedy couldn't come, and I just cant stand being alone anymore, I asked if anyone could come... And acctually, without surprize Polly said she could :P

She's teasing me over text and well, I just told her to come now xD

Now to something else xD I tricked Jojjo to believe that I'd cut half my arm up :P Haha Just had a lot of fakeblood on it and haha It was quite fun :P But she was mad when I told her xD

Love all ya readers <333

Regards:

Bored, depressed...............

I'm bored to death right now :(
No one will come today, I'm sure of it... Speedy wont be able... And no one else is even thinking of it... My life in a nutshell, I'm ignored.... =/

Fuck... I shouldn't have eaten, now I'm feeling very sick :(

bye bye if you even read this.....

Regards:

Untitled

This is really great, or not.... Im so sick of this lonelyness, but I cant stand to talk to a lot of people.... =/

Well, gonna sleep again, there is no fuckin thing todo when I'm awake.... =/

Bye.......

Regards:

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Alone =/

Going to stay offline on all communities and instant messengers...
Shut off my phones and let all of you read everything here...

If you want me anything, show up at my doorstep! I wont answer any comments or anything during this time!

After midnight I'll be unreachable until I feel better....
From now on I'll be unreachable until I feel better....

Sorry for making things fucked up!

Regards:

Alone =/

I'm thinking of turning my phones of, sign out from MSN and just stay away from people for a while, until I feel better and more secure....

If anyone wants me anything they'll have to come see me personally!

Going to see how I feel when I go to bed later... =/

Bye you readers =/

Regards: