Bad day…

This is bad… I’ve really started to miss an old friend of mine… A while ago, like in the beginning of the year there were some tries for a relationship, which didn’t work out. Sadly… But hey, as I’ve said, we’ve been starting to talk again and now I miss her quite much, and I think of what would’ve been if our tries had worked, how would I’ve been different…

Well, one thing for sure is that I wouldn’t had been on the Sonisphere Festival to see one of my absolutely favorite bands, Adept <3 And now when they’re on topic, she was the one who made me listen to them :D Grow up Peter Pan !

“I am the bullet in your gun, you had me loaded since day one” – I really miss that time…

Well, should eat something soon and then get back to my GameCube gaming xD

Kisses to those who are worth it, you know who you are <333

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Fuck this !

Yeah, what a great resurrection of my blog, or not !
Celebrated 8 months with my gf this Sunday, and, well, I don’t think I can do this anymore… Why couldn’t she listen to me… If she’d shown more respect for my family and friends I’d never felt like this… Just can’t stand her attitude anymore…

Seriously, I think I want  a gf that lives like 2 hours away, so we jus can meet on like the weekends so we can’t get on each others nerves…
But if I break up, it’ll probably mess up with my best friend, her brother…

So tired of his, oh yeah………

 

Well well, I’m out! Thanks to those few ha helps me keep my spirits up <3 It really matters to me! Love you !

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hmm...

Blaah on this...
I'm feeling down and depressed...
I just feel tired and I just want to sleep...

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Bored, depressed...............

i dunno what to write, but i suppose i should as it was quite a while ago...

been watching death note season 2 and well, i love it!





this has been a boring day, and well, this week will probably go on with being boring...
its not like someone will show up here and keep me company, as i m so fucking boring just sitting at the computer watching alot of anime....

gonna try to do some sketching now or something... or play in photoshop cs4 or what ever....
c ya...

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This night...

This night was a nightmare... When Wirran had fallen asleep I went into the kitchen to do some dishes... And well in there I broke down... The feeling of water just got me to think of it as the 10 seconds death highway...

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Fuck it !

Now I'm getting a bit pissed of!

I've been counting the money that I should recieve from the social office, and none of it maks sense... Normally I get around 6500:- a month, for rent and everything else, but now it seems like they are stealing around 1000:- from me :O Because now I just gonna get 5754:- :O

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Fuck Fuck Fuck . . . . . . . . . . . . .

I miss the time when I was this small... No problem in the world, and now, everything just gets messed up... Love, friends, school, work, money, food... Everything is just a fucking mess...

If I feel like this tomorrow, I'll probably quit being on MSN, turn of my phones, and only update my blog, when I feel there is something to put up here... Like that would ever happen, and why would I do it exactly... Like anyone of the returning readers acctualy care about me......
No, I'll probably be offline everywhere from tomorrow and until I feel good again... Started to take my anti-depression pills again, just to see what use they acctualy have... Oh, I doubled the dose I got like 6 months ago :O Hope no one care, because I don't... I was this --> <-- close to take three Gabapentin to fall asleep, but I didn't... I don't want to do something bad... It ain't my style... Remember that!

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Hmm..... Fuck....

Fick this... I need a new Walkman phone :(
My W660 is fucked up since I took the bike to honey........

I had it in my pocket, headset connected and listening to music...
About halfway it just died, or that's what I thought....
The keypad light was still on, the screen was dead...

I've been flashing it over and over again, both without any patches, without trying to break it or anything, but it has just kept being dead...

Today I tried to reflash it again. I got the screen working... My first reaction was.... YAAAAAAAY!
So now I was to finalize it by applying my custom pack, which has been working MANY times before... And when I've copied the files to the proper locations, I disconnected as usual, removed the battery and reinserted it again... Started up, screen working :) and then... ka-blaam, the screen goes black :O Keypad light still shining bright, still some sound from the speaker...

I restarted the phone, screen was dead, restarted again, screen working...
Got into the menu and found alot of misscolorizations... Opened the Service Menu, entered the service tests and selected Main Display... A lot of problems with colors, like everywhere :O

The screen then just dies, AGAIN! And it has been keeping on like this for a while.... :(

So now I'm looking for a new Walkman phone, which is a DB 2010/2012/2020 so I can keep on with my modding.... Found a W610 on Blocket for 600:- but I don't have that money right now...

Well well, gonna be social as I'm at mums house :)
See y'all later <333

Wirran, I miss you so much I can't even describe it....... <3333

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This night...

...has been awful :(
I've been depressed as hell and been watching some movies to cheer me up...

The french Taxi (1) and Taxi (2) :) Love them <3
At the moment I'm watching WALL*E (^^, )

I've noticed that some of my DVD's work in my new one I got from Ronnie, and some work in my old player :O That's really wierd :P

Well, gonna continue to chat with Sara (check her blog, link to the right) and Twiggyboll (^^,) and of course I'll continue watching cutie WALL*E <3

Love all ya readers <333

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Alone again....

So, now I'm alone again =/
Polly's mum were here and picked her up :( She were supposed to be somewhere tomorrow so she had to go...

Well, texting with Louise and it's quite fun :) She's the only one that seems to notice me right now... Not even the girl supposed to love me.... Well, to hell with everyone that ignores me...

Now I have to answer Louise's last text... ^^, She's sweet <3

Love all ya readers! <333

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Bored, depressed...............

I'm bored to death right now :(
No one will come today, I'm sure of it... Speedy wont be able... And no one else is even thinking of it... My life in a nutshell, I'm ignored.... =/

Fuck... I shouldn't have eaten, now I'm feeling very sick :(

bye bye if you even read this.....

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Bored....

Doing nothing useful....
Soon going to eat breakfast, but I'm to lazy to get up from bed....

Been starting to use my Last.FM again, last time were 29th January :O
Registered on LifeStream.FM but it fucked up :O so can't use it I think...

Weiii......*NOT*

Check my Last.FM : Chop89
Check my LifeStream.FM: PentaMedia - Got it working now :)

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Untitled

This is really great, or not.... Im so sick of this lonelyness, but I cant stand to talk to a lot of people.... =/

Well, gonna sleep again, there is no fuckin thing todo when I'm awake.... =/

Bye.......

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Alone =/

Going to stay offline on all communities and instant messengers...
Shut off my phones and let all of you read everything here...

If you want me anything, show up at my doorstep! I wont answer any comments or anything during this time!

After midnight I'll be unreachable until I feel better....
From now on I'll be unreachable until I feel better....

Sorry for making things fucked up!

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Alone =/

I'm thinking of turning my phones of, sign out from MSN and just stay away from people for a while, until I feel better and more secure....

If anyone wants me anything they'll have to come see me personally!

Going to see how I feel when I go to bed later... =/

Bye you readers =/

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What is this?

I really doubt her feelings for me, and I can't stand it:( If this is how it's gonna be, then she'll have to live without me... Then I'll put my energy on someone who does show that I actually mean something... Like Polly :) I feel so fullfilled when I'm with her, and It seems like she enjoys being with me :) That's what I both need and want... A girl who puts her energy to be with me, as I do! Well well, I know people label me as a player and it's so wrong it could be... I'm that kinda guy that flirt with girls until I find a girl that I feel that I can be with. And I feel like that with Polly! I used to do that with Speedy, but that feeling is slowly fading as time goes by...

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What is this...

...but a slow, boring and depressing life we're living... My life is slowly killing me... Seems like this weekend will be as lonely as usual......:(

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Hmm... :(

Where is she... I really want to be with her, but she hasn't shown up... Pleasd don't tell me you're not coming:'( <333

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