Fuck this !

Yeah, what a great resurrection of my blog, or not !
Celebrated 8 months with my gf this Sunday, and, well, I don’t think I can do this anymore… Why couldn’t she listen to me… If she’d shown more respect for my family and friends I’d never felt like this… Just can’t stand her attitude anymore…

Seriously, I think I want  a gf that lives like 2 hours away, so we jus can meet on like the weekends so we can’t get on each others nerves…
But if I break up, it’ll probably mess up with my best friend, her brother…

So tired of his, oh yeah………

 

Well well, I’m out! Thanks to those few ha helps me keep my spirits up <3 It really matters to me! Love you !

Regards:

hmm...

Blaah on this...
I'm feeling down and depressed...
I just feel tired and I just want to sleep...

Regards:

Wirran <333

Laying next to Wirran in her bed right now, afraid to wake her up... But I just can't sleep :( I want to... But just the touch of her skin gives me chills... She's so God damn beautiful so it can't be for real :o I'm afraid of falling asleep as what if this is just a dream, this something, so unreal for me... If these feelings keep getting stronger I'll lose my mind.

I totally surrender,
I put my heart in your gentle hands,
Destiny, could it be?
I sure hope so,
This happy I haven't been for ages.
You are my sunshine dust,
My saviour.

Wirran, this is for you <333

An early morning everything changed,
A bright shining star appeared in my life,
Showing me the way throughout the world.
Even thou it just have been for a couple of days,
You've showed me, convinced me that you're the one I've been looking for,
Hopefully you'll realise it yourself soon enough,
But I'll be waiting for you even if it would take months,
I think... I think... I think... <333

Regards:

Fuck Fuck Fuck . . . . . . . . . . . . .

I miss the time when I was this small... No problem in the world, and now, everything just gets messed up... Love, friends, school, work, money, food... Everything is just a fucking mess...

If I feel like this tomorrow, I'll probably quit being on MSN, turn of my phones, and only update my blog, when I feel there is something to put up here... Like that would ever happen, and why would I do it exactly... Like anyone of the returning readers acctualy care about me......
No, I'll probably be offline everywhere from tomorrow and until I feel good again... Started to take my anti-depression pills again, just to see what use they acctualy have... Oh, I doubled the dose I got like 6 months ago :O Hope no one care, because I don't... I was this --> <-- close to take three Gabapentin to fall asleep, but I didn't... I don't want to do something bad... It ain't my style... Remember that!

Regards:

Hmm..... Fuck....

Fick this... I need a new Walkman phone :(
My W660 is fucked up since I took the bike to honey........

I had it in my pocket, headset connected and listening to music...
About halfway it just died, or that's what I thought....
The keypad light was still on, the screen was dead...

I've been flashing it over and over again, both without any patches, without trying to break it or anything, but it has just kept being dead...

Today I tried to reflash it again. I got the screen working... My first reaction was.... YAAAAAAAY!
So now I was to finalize it by applying my custom pack, which has been working MANY times before... And when I've copied the files to the proper locations, I disconnected as usual, removed the battery and reinserted it again... Started up, screen working :) and then... ka-blaam, the screen goes black :O Keypad light still shining bright, still some sound from the speaker...

I restarted the phone, screen was dead, restarted again, screen working...
Got into the menu and found alot of misscolorizations... Opened the Service Menu, entered the service tests and selected Main Display... A lot of problems with colors, like everywhere :O

The screen then just dies, AGAIN! And it has been keeping on like this for a while.... :(

So now I'm looking for a new Walkman phone, which is a DB 2010/2012/2020 so I can keep on with my modding.... Found a W610 on Blocket for 600:- but I don't have that money right now...

Well well, gonna be social as I'm at mums house :)
See y'all later <333

Wirran, I miss you so much I can't even describe it....... <3333

Regards:

At moms house :)

Im at moms house, being a bit bored... She called and woke me up when I had got like 4 hours of sleep, so Im tired as hell xD

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