Good Night People !

Hello all you readers ;)

Feeling quite okey at the moment. Been texting with Emelie today, and it seems like it will all work out good. At least that's what I hope, but I won’t put my hopes up high. She’s a bit uncertain of how she is feeling I guess. And to be honest, I’m a bit uncertain of how to do if she want us to get back together. I’ve had a policy that I’d never get back with an ex, but for the third time in my life, I’m actually a bit prepared to do it. But I don’t know for sure yet. I mean, how could it ever get back to what we had? How could it ever be the same? Even thou I feel for her like I felt before, how can I be sure she doesn’t just want to get back together to avoid being alone, if that’s even possible with that look and personality, but anyway. I doubt it could be the same but I really want that back, the chemistry we had, the time we shared. It was something truly extraordinaire if you ask me. I think that I’ll be taking the risk of being hurt again just to make sure I won’t miss a chance to get that back. But we’ll see. We’re supposed to meet tomorrow and talk about it. Let’s see how that goes.

Began school yesterday, awesome! But I feel a bit nervous about the fact that I don’t know a soul there. And to be honest I’m actually beginning to think I have some social problem. If no one’s starting to talk with me, I can’t talk. I don’t dare to initiate a conversation if I’m all alone. I need my friends around… I hate that. I want to be able to take initiative, to make connections all by myself… That’s going to be the topic of the next session with my psychologist. Definitively! Oh, and you’re so welcome to call me a coward or anything like that, but I can’t do anything about it. I’ve been pushed away from so many people I’ve tried to connect with during the years that I’ve become afraid of taking the first step…

Stayed home today because of two reasons mainly, I overslept and I had to try to get some money for my bus card so I could get there AND home. Managed to borrow 200:- of my mother tonight. That’s good :)

Now I’m going to sleep so I can get up in the morning. About 6 hours left until I have to wake up.

Love and kisses to those who matter to me, I sure hope you do know who you are ! If you’re not, then here I’ll list most of you!
Ewwe, Speedy, Sandy, Natta, Becca, Bexx, Bergarn, Hassna, Emelie, Henke, Sabrina, Annelie, Jennifer (sis), Jessie (sis), and of course my mother :)

Regards: